I’m at a strange point in my life. Uncharted waters for me.
I used to have a niche. I was the young married, no kids, active in theatre, creative and crafty person. I had other young married/no kids friends, I had friends active in theatre, and I had creative and crafty friends.
Currently I feel like a fish out of water. Because of my three years of essentially hibernating, due to the fact that I never quite knew what horrors my rear end would subject me to in public, I have alienated myself from a lot of my social outlets. And honestly? I don’t miss all that socializing that much. I’ve never been a party girl (except for maybe my sophomore year in college), so living without it hasn’t been that much of a stretch.
But it’s strange. I kind of hunger for the right “niche” for me… And I don’t really fit in with the young marrieds with young kids group currently. Jerry says I’m “old for my age,” and I guess that’s true. I definitely don’t fit in with the theatre crowd like I used to, because I’m too cheap to buy tickets to go see shows, and too busy at home to be involved enough that I could sneak in for free. So there’s a whole culture down there that I’m not even part of anymore. My quilting friends are lots of fun, but I’m the young-and-hip one of that group, which always strikes me as funny.
There is one group of women that I am very close to. Several of them I have known for about six years now, and I know that we will probably be friends until we’re all old. And I love that. The only problem is that we live all over the place, and none of them lives near me. California, California, Texas, Texas, Texas, Michigan, Michigan, and Illinois. This is the group of women I got together with in March, and I have never laughed so hard for so long as I did that week. The Sonic Beverage incident on the interstate in particular. Gah, that was hilarious.
I miss you ladies. I wish we were all local, because IM sessions just aren’t enough. I loved in March that I could just totally be myself and not have to hide behind any pretenses of what you might think of me. You had already seen the good, the bad, and the ugly, and so I was just ME. That was incredible. Thank you.